(originally posted on April
2, 2012 via my thoughts.com account.)
Sat here alone
on this fine Monday afternoon, not only drinking coffee, but drinking in this
sensation, this sensation of living on my own...which at first was a bit
strange feeling, I'll admit, but still felt like freedom....it is now something
I am used to. What I also had to become used to was having to move again.
Yes, we are now in our new apartment, and I really like everything about it. It has a nice vibe to it: 3 large rooms, simple, loads more room, closer to our favorite places, and it very much feels like home now. As I reflect on all the things I must do today, I reflect on not the past, but the future. How does one reflect on the future, you ask? Use your imagination. Think about what is to come in your life, your 'timeline', organize your thoughts and ideas, your goals and dreams. If you do that, life doesn't seem quite as dull as it may seem to be sometimes. To some people, it may go something like this, "Why are you telling me this, I know what I'm doing. I know how to reflect, don't tell me how to reflect!" Y'know the know-it-alls. There's many of those in this world. To others it might be, "What in god's name are you actually fucking talking about?" Doesn't really matter as long as you understand the concept, and you don't give a shit what others think, then you're on the right track.
Back to the reflection. For example, I've got a BILLION things swimming in my mind at the moment.
"Will we have saved up enough money to go on our trip to London when June arrives? Oh shit, I need to go get a passport too, and so does John! I really need to buy plane tickets soon. Wow, I really need to study for this exam that's tomorrow. Why have I not looked at my notes yet? Oh yeah, cos I'm on the Internet......Do I have enough money to buy a pizza tonight? Whew, so glad the rent's all taken care of now, thank fuck. Now we've got the utilities, gas and internet to take care of! Oh no, AND the cell phone, shit...I forgot about that one. We can do this. We CAN do this. I hope that idea Mom gave me the other day can become a success, that would be...just......words!"
"I really need to finish up my website soon. Gotta give all the previous listeners something to look forward to now that I'm no longer on the Z. They have no idea how killer this is going to be....hell, I still don't even realize the level of awesome it is going to be yet! I wonder if Asking is going to be at Warped? And I wonder if there's even a fleeting chance of interviewing BVB at Download....damn that's gonna be one helluva show! I'll probably pee on myself cos we'll be stuck up at the front all day. But it'll be so worth it dude! XD......Oh my god, I can't wait to meet Meg, she seems so fucking awesome!!! We are actually going to meet Meg! And go to motherfucking Download together! I'm England bound again...FUCK. YEAH. Woohooooo! It's John's first time on a plane....uh-oh...oh shit, I hope he doesn't get sick!!! He won't, or will he? To bring the big camera, or not to bring the big camera....that is the question..."
All the random thoughts of the day, somehow make it all worthwhile. See, isn't reflection grand?? Even if you do feel like your brain is imploding some days, it's so worth the insanity, because there's millions of things worth living for. Life is worth living for.
Yes, we are now in our new apartment, and I really like everything about it. It has a nice vibe to it: 3 large rooms, simple, loads more room, closer to our favorite places, and it very much feels like home now. As I reflect on all the things I must do today, I reflect on not the past, but the future. How does one reflect on the future, you ask? Use your imagination. Think about what is to come in your life, your 'timeline', organize your thoughts and ideas, your goals and dreams. If you do that, life doesn't seem quite as dull as it may seem to be sometimes. To some people, it may go something like this, "Why are you telling me this, I know what I'm doing. I know how to reflect, don't tell me how to reflect!" Y'know the know-it-alls. There's many of those in this world. To others it might be, "What in god's name are you actually fucking talking about?" Doesn't really matter as long as you understand the concept, and you don't give a shit what others think, then you're on the right track.
Back to the reflection. For example, I've got a BILLION things swimming in my mind at the moment.
"Will we have saved up enough money to go on our trip to London when June arrives? Oh shit, I need to go get a passport too, and so does John! I really need to buy plane tickets soon. Wow, I really need to study for this exam that's tomorrow. Why have I not looked at my notes yet? Oh yeah, cos I'm on the Internet......Do I have enough money to buy a pizza tonight? Whew, so glad the rent's all taken care of now, thank fuck. Now we've got the utilities, gas and internet to take care of! Oh no, AND the cell phone, shit...I forgot about that one. We can do this. We CAN do this. I hope that idea Mom gave me the other day can become a success, that would be...just......words!"
"I really need to finish up my website soon. Gotta give all the previous listeners something to look forward to now that I'm no longer on the Z. They have no idea how killer this is going to be....hell, I still don't even realize the level of awesome it is going to be yet! I wonder if Asking is going to be at Warped? And I wonder if there's even a fleeting chance of interviewing BVB at Download....damn that's gonna be one helluva show! I'll probably pee on myself cos we'll be stuck up at the front all day. But it'll be so worth it dude! XD......Oh my god, I can't wait to meet Meg, she seems so fucking awesome!!! We are actually going to meet Meg! And go to motherfucking Download together! I'm England bound again...FUCK. YEAH. Woohooooo! It's John's first time on a plane....uh-oh...oh shit, I hope he doesn't get sick!!! He won't, or will he? To bring the big camera, or not to bring the big camera....that is the question..."
All the random thoughts of the day, somehow make it all worthwhile. See, isn't reflection grand?? Even if you do feel like your brain is imploding some days, it's so worth the insanity, because there's millions of things worth living for. Life is worth living for.
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